Me lol

male-pride:

many times

(Source: thefourthfireshadow)

Eventually everything comes to an end. Even that loe you share for someone. Either they lose it or you lose it, either way everything comes to an end.

I just dont know what to think or do anymore. You have me kind of torn but i dont have the time to think about it.

Well i guess this little “thing” i had or decided to do is coming to an end. Its about time i stop clinging to the things that do not belong to me, or ever did. For the moment it is best that i focus on my current endevour, which is my job. For what ever reason, should you decided to text me instead of the other way around then that shall be the moment where i know you want this just as much as i do. But for the moment it is best that i focus on other things.

My life is too short and things that i am doing need my all in it. Should anyone else show me something more then what ive seen then that shall be even better. For the time being i guess im jut going to be alone. Like always.

I feel like i havent posted anything in so damn long. Its all because this job has me so tired. Lately i just havent had the energy to do anything. And the emotional toll im taking isnt helping either. Things, since i got home, Have been alright, though could be better. Started working at Chipotle, and i gotta say besides the strain my body is taking im enjoying it a lot. It keeps my mind busy and not thinking a lot.

Though i still find myself going back to thinking about you. Why is it that you dont want to text me or answer my texts when i send you one. I want to talk with you and you just make it so the convo ends fast. I dont like it. “friends” wouldnt do such a thing. They would keep the convo going and make an effort even if you have a job or other friends around. It annoyes me but idk i have to understand things arent always like that.
I dont know if i should continue trying or if i should just not bother anymore….IDK….

My first day on the job and i gotta say its a lot to do but like if i learn to manage my time and get my knife cuts done i should be able to work on my own. For the moment i am nursing my wounds and tending to my knee. Currently feel like it’s about to fall out of its joint and i got a blister that popped in the middle of service. Talk about cutting in pain. But hey i can say all this shit but in the end it is my profession. And i am going to have battle scars by the end of this summer. Ugh just hopw i get some time to relax as well as work.

All work and no play makes Me a dull man, and that i cannot have.

And yet you run behind my mind. I am surprised you are actually talking to me. Like why all of a sudden that im two states away do you decide to keep the communication up? Like really, i feel like you make no sence sometimes. Love and Life are two of the most confusing things ever. And yet i like this. Please dont stop. Just really wish You could give me that back rub i so desperatly want ;) lol. (naughty me = lol)